We've been together for a year since the sixteenth of July. I couldn't live without him,
That's what's going on in my head. Lately, all of these nights, I can't really get any sleep.
Too busy thinking. About what? Everything. I hate depression, hate being bi-polar, and now
I feel like I have some sort of OCD in the head, with my thoughts.
My thoughts are all chain reactions, driving me insane.
Home life is horrible, being emotionally abused, everyday. I really wish I could leave. and
I can. But I still can't figure out why it is that I won't.. Maybe i'm too scared.
The girl up there, has attempted to commit suicide. That's not a shocker,
because so many people out there, that's what they first turn to. Death.
Majority won't actually do it though. I failed to, three years ago. So i'm still here.
I'll admit. What I am scared of? It's not death. I'm scared to live, to put up with more
of what I already do, every single day. Nobody deserves to be yelled at over nothing,
all the time. It's terrible to hear your father say all these horrible things to your mom,
that shouldn't be said in front of the children. Shouldn't be said at all. But i'm getting through
everyday, one day at a time. It's hard. But I believe he's the reason what I do this for, do this
for myself, for him. And for us.
The roller coaster.
Won't stop for anyone to get off. Everyone just hops on,
in for much of a surprise. Once they're on, they desperately try
to find a way off. But there is no way. All these thoughts, nibbling
their way through my head. Through my mind. So many thoughts,
you forget how to feel. So you break down. So many thoughts,
you feel too much. So you break down. It's a loose loose situation.
You in?
